Not sure where to start:
As it turns out, my previous mood of hopefulness in being able to write here more frequently (and perhaps with more coherency/more of a point to get across) was a short lived mood. I haven’t exactly been lacking for subjects to write down, oh no. I feel it may have more to do with a certain level of expectation I am putting upon myself. Because when I read blogs that my friends have written, I can’t help but think at times:
Wouldn’t it be great to have the same output as they do?
The same level of… thoughtfulness… (my last entry was about a biscuit falling in my cup of tea, after all!)
But, as I write this down, I can see that those thoughts are not truly my own. Well they are, in that I personally have written them down and not someone else. But more accurately, I mean that where I am right now, what I have been reading and hearing, and what God has been saying to me, these types of thoughts (as in the negative, self-depreciating ones) are not what I think! Not really. Not deep down, in the core of “who I am”.
And why not?
Because Jesus loves me! He doesn’t love the “me” that writes beautiful literature for a blog post, because that is not me! We were all created in the image of our father God, and, with out hearts being rooted in the right place, in the second man, the correct man, in Jesus, our Father see’s His glory, His perfect obedience, His perfect life, reflected in us. And therefore, in the eyes of God, we are perfect, we are us. I am me, and He loves that “me”.
Ok, that became more of a stream of consciousness than I had anticipated, and I’m having to stop myself to some extent from waffling on excessively, about things which perhaps don’t make all that much sense :)
But all the same… Hallelujah for the life that we can life with Christ, in Him, for Him, about Him!
Ooh, tired… But so happy and in love with the Lord right now!
Peace :)
